For once in my life I want to study as hard as I possibly can. I'm sick of being nothing but potential, I've been told it must be nice, not to have to try very hard and most of the time it is but this time it just isn't enough. These past three years of not trying, not doing have been rather...disappointing. And lets just say my attempt at Biology in 08 was too little, too late. So let's not do that anymore mmkay?

I don't like to disappoint, especially not myself nor my friends, and the thought of what I'd have to tell them come Feb/March terrifies me like nothing else.(not that I'd ever think that they would think me any less for whatever outcome I get)

I'm so close, so fucking close, less than three months and...
So enough with the unmotivated(read:Lazy) behaviour and time to get down to it. I've wasted an unhealthy amount of time as it is, but Miss Choo says there's hope yet! (And I love and trust her, so I just know she's right)

Apparently me saying it verbally isn't enough because I've just wasted the past few weeks, so I'm writing it here. For once in my life, I'm going to really really study, I'm sick of always being that kid who could do so much more and really everytime I read my essays I just want to laugh at the dribble I spew out. I know after every exam I say I'm going to start earlier next time, not do last minute work next time, but I really mean it now. Three years boils down to just this.
I'm sorry for disappearing on people who I want to see and should see, but it's only a few more months(MY LOVE REMAINS UNCHANGED <333)