Meet me in Montauk

I walked to United Square barefoot to fetch me some Slurpee goodness. Yes, this is my Saturday night right here, I'm staying home to bond with my violin and to impel myself into some sort of productivity, I have poems that need annotating, and notes that need to be looked through. How entirely mundane. Not like all you cool kids.

I just wanted to put things in blank spaces for people to find. Hello Stranger, come say hello.

Tamsin: So what are you gonna do with your life?
Mona: I'm gonna be a lawyer.
[pause]
Mona: I'm gonna get a job in an abattoir, work really hard, get a boyfriend who's like... a bastard, and churn out all these kids, right, with mental problems. And then I'm gonna wait for the menopause... or cancer.

It hurts everytime she says it, because the realism is stinging and it's the last thing I ever want for myself. I see it all the time, people who are bigger than the lives their living and it terrifies me, scares me shitless because if our dreams aren't worth anything...


Why have I been so chipper of late, it honestly pisses me off, oh the complete irony.
Bel and I went to Candy Mountain today, it's been awhile. It was sufficiently convivial and I resisted the urge to load our basket with novels and assorted classics mainly because I read on my bed and well, Dust. I have silly lofty fantasies of majoring in Classics but you know theres Reality and the fact that one would have to master Greek and Latin, horror. The difficulty I mean. Joan and I used to make snarky remarks about Classics Majors and Philosophy Majors, mostly to dissuade ourselves and and detach ourselves from such jeopardous aspirations, Realism Realism Realism. But apparently ...
"We can't overestimate the value of a Classics major. Check this out: according to Association of American Medical Colleges, students who major or double-major in Classics have a better success rate getting into medical school than do students who concentrate solely in biology, microbiology, and other branches of science. Crazy, huh? Furthermore, according to Harvard Magazine, Classics majors (and math majors) have the highest success rates of any majors in law school. Believe it or not: political science, economics, and pre-law majors lag fairly far behind. Even furthermore, Classics majors consistently have some of the highest scores on GREs of all undergraduates."
But I digress, thanks bel for escorting me to my violin class, I hope you had fun with your step-brother. Ciaran, Mona and I are getting along pretty well. Ciaran 1s l1k3 s0 t0t4lly h0t. Charming bugger, him.

I am home on a Saturday night, I'm not out like you cool kids. I am home finishing up Pride and Prejudice in my comfy armchair while sipping port and nursing blisters, I am practically an old man. Forget it, you won't get the joke unless you're special. Maybe later I will write letters and make people mixtapes because I'm in love and hate with the world.