Six days at the bottom of the ocean

School isn't That Bad, I am so overly melodramatic its annoying. I'm aware that I look like a windswept hobo in school but I don't really care that much about my appearance in school anymore. Honestly, I'm just going through the motions, like I'm in a drawn-out phase of anhedonia but thats alright because it'll be over soon(well technically 2 more years). I don't know why it seems like I am but regardless I feel the need to clarify because people keep asking - I am Not depressed, maybe just a little sleep deprived ^_^

In my younger and more vulnerable years my father gave me some advice that I've been turning over in my mind ever since.
"Whenever you feel like criticizing any one," he told me, "just remember that all the people in this world haven't had the advantages that you've had."
- The Great Gatsby

I haven't been myself the past 1 year and 1 month, it's like I'm making up for all the years of withholding judgement and just bitching about everything. It's incredibly frustrating that it isn't as easy to stop as I thought it would be. Why is it that thoughts I previously weren't conscious of are articulated before I even have time to process them? My mouth filter must be broken.

Nothing much to add, I am dreading turning 18 and I should go to bed soon seeing as I have to wake up early to meet annab. Also I love weekends.